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Posted by GoinCrazy (Member # 3047) on :

Hey, I'm a new member on this board. I seriously need some prayers.
Quick fill-in of my life: For the past year or so I have been struggling and trying to cope with Self Injury (SI) and an eating disorder (ED) i'm 14 right now.

Ok, so. For the last day or so, pretty much all I've been able 2 think about is SI; namely, cutting my wrists. I know God doesn't want this for me, and I don't want 2 do it 2 kill myself, but it's all I can think about. If it was up to me, no one would know about this in person. But two people do, and they think I'm suicidal. Which I'm not in any way.

So firstly please pray for Mark and Maggie, that they would see the fact I'm hurting and that I'm not trying to worry them or anything, but this is just the only way I know to deal with my pain, I want them to realise I'm not suicidal.
Can you also please pray for me. I know that if i do give in and cut my wrists then it could go wrong and kill me, which I don't want. I just want to know what it is to feel happy again.

Thanks, I really appreciate it.

Posted by helpforhomeschoolers (Member # 15) on :

Hi Rach:

Welcome to the board. Rach do you have a church? Do you have a pastor that you can talk with about this desire to self mutilate? Can you email with your town, I would like to help you find a Cristian counselor to work with.

I do believe you when you say that you dont want to kill yurself; but this desire to hurt yourself is dangerous because you could make a mistake and go to far.

Rach, if Jesus is your savior then he he really has freed you from the power of anything evil in an unseen realm that would try to convince you to hurt yourself.

I used to be very depressed. I was so depressed for 8 ears that I felt like I litterally walked around under a black cloud. I would drive my car and and hear voices that would tell me to drive my car off a cliff (I live in the mountains). The doctors put me on drugs, but the drugs made it worse! One day Jesus explained to me that HE is our joy and I came to realize that these thoughts were a kind of demonic oppression and the devil wanted me to be depressed and even wanted me to die... though I never wanted to die... just like you dont want to die. See God had work for me to do and the devil and his demons wanted to keep me from that work.

We have a spiritual armor that protects us from this kind of thing where the enemy tries to put thoughts in our head that are against God. You have to learn about that armor and how to wear it. You have to learn how to send those evil thoughs hiking somewhere other than your brain.

Everytime you self mutilate, it hurts God and the enemy rejoices; but through Jesus we dont have to take the enemies abuse, we can send them hiking and we can be full of joy even when life all around us stinks.

A chirstian counselor can help you to learn how to put on your armor and resist the devil. The Bible says if we do he will flee.

This is my email Linda@helpforhomeschoolers.com you can just post your town. I dont want anymore personal information than that I will find a Christian counselor for you and I will post it here and you can contact somewhere you live.

I can also give you information about your armor and I will be here anytime you need to talk or your feeling those thoughts

Another thing is you have to control what you put in your ears, you need to find some good Christian worship music and I am not talking abou the heavy metal stuff I am talking about worship music that sings praises to Jesus. When you begin to feel the need to self mutilate, you can begin to listen to sing his praises, this sounds too simple, but Rach the enemy cant stand to be around someone who is praising GOD outloud.

Please write back, you dont have to go through this alone. Jesus will help you and so will I and All of us will pray with you.

Linda

Posted by GoinCrazy (Member # 3047) on :

Hey, thanks. Yes I do have a church I go to, and I suppose I could talk to my pastor if I wanted to. I normally talk to my youth pastor though, but it just seems like no one knows what to say or do to help me...

Posted by helpforhomeschoolers (Member # 15) on :

Rach what kind of church do you go to? I mean is it an anglican church, a catholic church? what kind of church?

Posted by praymanpray (Member # 406) on :

Rach,

1. Talk to God about this. He won't have you to do anything wrong. If you need help talking with God, bring in your pastor and youth pastor to help. They are the spiritual leaders God has given you, and are trained professionals in matters like this.
2. You didn't mention your parents. Besides God, they love you more than anyone. You also didn't mention grandparents. If you have grandparents, I am sure you can talk to them about anything without having them steer you wrong. I am a parent with children ranging in age for 18 to 33. I am also a grandparent with grandchildren ranging in age from 2 to 12, so I'm not out of touch with people your age. Talk to your parents and grandparents about this, today.
3. Talk to Mark and Maggie. If they are worried about you, they are probably good friends.
4. Talk to a counselor at school. They can often help, and can get you in touch with people who will listen and can help.
5. Don't cut your wrists or anything else, PLEASE! It will be painful, you may die, and it will not help in any way.

Love, JJ

Posted by GoinCrazy (Member # 3047) on :

i go to a non-denominational church.

JJ- 1. I suppose i find talking to God a bit of a problem sometimes, but i wouldn't know what to say to my pastor or youth pastor.
2. I didn't mention parents or grandparents for a simple reason. Not because i don't have them, but because they aren't christians and not only would they not understand, but i just can't talk to them. it would ruin them.
3. Mark's quite a good friend, he's also my form tutor at school. Maggie, not a good friend really, my head of year. (I used their first names because I figured it'd be easier.)
4. I can't go 2 the school counsellor, because i don't like her, and also, her office is right by reception, which is where my mum works. not the best of situations.
5. can't promise anything i'm afraid. but i won't kill myself, i guess i can promise that. [Smile]